Old days and Taemin crying.

;_; Kids started out really young in the industry for sure. Fighting~

Always has been awesome




Marketing tmw ;_; Just woke up so tired after Ethics today
No comments.

Monday's paper - Ethics & Soc Resp
Tue's paper - Marketing

Next Tues's paper - Finance

Im kinda dead for everything. Severely dead.
I have only read 2 out of 8 chapters for Marketing.

My somewhat indifference is amazing.

Anyway. I love wheesung. and lyn. and park hyo shin.
Rewatched these (Mirotic + So Hot + Insomnia). Wheesung and Lyn's covers are better than the originals. LOL. The dancing bit made me LOL tho. But amazing covers nonetheless.

I need to have a HAPPY post

because i realised that i go all ... , or complain-y and -cue diao face- when im on here. I mean, when im happy im too busy with the happy to be on here i guess?

KK.

HAPPY BECAUSE TONIGHT ILL SLEEP EARLY.
FO SHO.

You can yell at me if you see me online past 1 am! :D

This week will be a bit of a marathon. I am soooo unprepared for interview. and ethics. and marketing. AND finance. K.
FIGHTING.

As much as i hate having a sore throat and being unable to sing properly, having the flu takes the cake for me. First you feel entirely lousy, not just the throat, and secondly, your nose is like a freaking tap.

I am in pieces today and headache and fk that huge bag containing the boots and my laptop and batteries and files because i need to lug them to town to change the damn boots and lug them back home. and i have a lot of ethics readings to complete im still on the first one for the day :(

This weekend was quite a bash. Barely at home for more than two hours except for when its late in the night and time to sleep. Natasha twice, plus church on both days, plus the whole clan's gathering last night for grandfather's birthday. I left the house at 5, and dinner lasted till 10+, reached home 11+. Guh ;_; What a long dinner. the fish tho, was ace and all the babies look so much bigger all of a sudden - has so much time passed? K, random.

Miserable flu.

Food. Sushi Tei last night with Nat (Ichiban Boshi is better tho) and had awsummm dimsum for lunch today with parents, grandparents and uncle&aunt. the xiaolongbaos at TungLok are better than those at DingTaiFung et. ... good food are our weakness.

Went to buy my high-cut boots for winter this morning. Got them and they are close to UGGs prices but think im going back to the shop to change on monday because i cant stuff my jeans into the current pair i got. Its pretty funkin' tho - purple laces 8'DD Ecco shoes are quite pretty!

Studies. Uh. K. I have nothing to say because that is what i have done.



Happy Birthday Nat! ^_^

No more official classes for the term. Just, study time for exams and a few more projects to submit. Guh ;_; Cant wait till its over.

I am a mean person, period. and i need to learn how to wake up.


The JongKey in 1000 Song recordings was adorbsssss. Still, practically speaking, my killer couple for 1000 Songs are OnHyun. Perfect match because they each cover a different range of songs and can kick ass on that show ^_^ Anyway, kids sound sick on radio. Jonghyun still sounds ew and throaty and Key sounds .__. kkkk. And it amused me the spam of reporters that came to see Minho take his college entrance exams. The other celebs werent spammed half as much for sure.

Tmw's vocal class is going to be hell because im coughing and sniffing all over.

laksa at 2am is no joke ;_;

anyway. slept the WHOLE day and now at night need to study finance so that i can submit my work in tmw :3

this week, nat's birthday we're hanging and going for my grandfather's birthday dinner at either st regis or was it paragon? samuel is missing it because of his exams. sucha pity because the food is jjang.

i like the boots at Uggs, but they are like USD140 at least to USD 260  excluding shipping which will be a bomb. guh. and its not like its a frequent use kinda thing - we dont have winter over here.

my family is crazy beneath that cultured, polite society veneer
i think it runs in the family

and it can explain some things.

Humans are all crazy anyway.


Today was wholly completely nothing.
Just (late) dinner with Nat Sarah and Tiffany at Ngee Ann City. Japanese as usual. we roamed taka, sephora, and hit ION for muji. we're such a card slashing society.

Tomorrow i really need to get some work done. Lets hope i dont wake up at 3 PM or something.

breathing is kinda hard right now
as in literally, not metaphorically or wtv.

phwoah today was dramatic day and gosh
not me, but i guess lol we're all pressured in a way or another.

i got all my bids, yes ALL for coming term.
what a nice surprise.

Tonight. SLEEP.
Tomorrow. Meeting. Presentation.

I mentioned that i had stage fright right.
Shocker ;__;

Puppy's sick and im *guh*. Its just not the same.

i just realised no one realised that i had my hair cut last thurs (?). rofl. similar style but different texturing/etc etc. had it done at Spa Scene which is at Swissotel/Raffles City.

got the laneige snow crystal compact or something. it smells really lovely plus spf. coverage, nothing much tho. and doesnt control oil too much. maybe i should try that japanese label.

... its crazy how i woke up so late today.
slap me someone.

parents and situation has been so good to me really
cars, restaurants, whatever i want/need. no lack.


the poor fight to keep food on their table. fight to keep life going.

those who have it all, fight to keep their focus -  they've already satisfied their basic living needs. and life just keeps going and going.


hahaha maslow's hierarchy of needs?

okay, enough. hit the books forreals, and lights out at 12 tonight.
punch me (out), minho. private joke.

so messed up
not because of music, not because of fandom, not because of anything or anyone, except myself.

im forever doing things things at the wrong time. always doing wrong times, or doing right things at the wrong time.

still wrong.


my body's natural clock is so messed up. im doing things when im not supposed to, im not doing things when im supposed to, or that im supposed to. i cannot sleep at night and wile the time away. i want to die during the day time because my energy and body is lagging so badly; getting through every day is a new fking battle.

and even when i dont have classes that day and i wake up horrendously late, i still feel so dazed.

the way im living makes living so ineffective and hard.

disinterested in work. whatever.
ive been telling my parents that i dislike what im doing. its a precursor i guess, to other things as well in the future.

music whatever.
when im like this, its no wonder that my music is stagnant and even declining. my awareness of techniques gets stronger by the day, but i have no condition to support it.


correcting all these will be a bitch.



ill start with today.
many more tumbles and picking up to come.

i shoved my foot into my mouth by mentioning kelly clarkson's "Where is Your Heart" in class. i have to prepare it by this friday now.
that's one hell of a fierce song. ive done songs like when you believe by mariah ft whitney, etc but this song, technically trumps them. its so damn hard im not sure how to pull this off well by friday's class. plus im not exactly in peak condition either



this song is a major head tone work out. :|
i should have chosen Ever Ever After or Hero by Mariah or something :|||||||

-head desks-

ive an ethics paper due tmw at 5PM and i havent started writing (or finished reading the article) im so damn bloody smart. plus finance homework, plus finance project. all by tmw. today was just bad because despite waking up, i went back to sleep more than several times.

thurs night i took the car out past 10, picked bev along the way and headed down to mel's to slack, act stupid, and came home past 2am. my dad is really nice letting me take out the car whenever i want. and buying me tauhway <3

privileges, privileges.

that im undeserving because im all :<<<<< SCREW-YOU-SCHOOL like.

guh. a LOT of things to do + due this week. im kinda dead meat.

i feel like a faker. this is so pressuring.

am behind my school work for really everything.
part of me is heck, who the hell cares, but when it crunches too tight, i panic and scramble to pick up the pieces (but fail).

my studying is as poor as my brother's now. horrifying shit.

im a weird person. i can write fair decently, shaping concepts, etc on the report, but ive always sucked ass at presentation. meaningfully scripted words become nothing when im up there, the ones that i attempt to recite from a slip of paper just dont make any sense at all.

words make more sense on paper. or when youre actively engaged. giving presentations/speeches has never been my kind of thing. neither has teaching for sure.

im seriously considering revising my major track. shocking, because ive always put down that ill do finance for certain. i think strategy would be interesting but theres no full major on that. i dont like too technical subjects, but i dont like wishy washy mods either. i enjoy twisting words and concepts around like for marketing, but marketing is kind of nonsense. at least to me ;3

i like getting the big picture so ive always enjoyed the thought formulation process and studying arching concepts and how they hold up. creation of policies, structures, etc. what kind of major does that?

i roughly know that i can do almost everything if i lift my finger to it, but im excellent in odd areas. which is a problem.
and if im disinterested, i cant get myself to put in more than minimal effort.

ok. enough.

saturday was marketing meeting (yes on a public holiday and the school was packed to the rafters ok - everyone was in school. what an obscenity) then youth then a last minute dinner engagement at a relative's. My parents are so 8'DDDD when it comes to babies. my older cousin has two of them so they were so happy to get to see them.

sunday, at home, slept the entire afternoon because i was so darn tired, and last minute dinner arrangement with Nat's family. did some finance project.

a leopard really cant change its spots.
so ive decided to just go with the flow, because theres no use beating up myself so much.

SHINee fandom jjang. when i like something, theres always a concrete, formidable reason, and not groundless airy-fairy lackluster kind of opinion. up yours.

im rather flighty and temperamental these days. i am as honest as always, but now i see things less rose-tinted and cheery. not necessarily a good thing. i am less tolerant, and i critique based on the standards i hold.

i do appreciate friends that keep me sane.

SHINee full album was out this morning.

Jjong fancam. Without mics, just extra fanservice when the live recorded earlier is airing.

hi there Jongkey. the dance movements are SO sharp TT


AND OH TODAY IS FANTASTIC DAY.
i saw carrie underwood at ION orchard's opening and her live performances is AMAZING. AMAZING. *kowtows* Nicolas was freaking out so bad. LOL. and SHINee's comeback day. MV release day. EVERYTHING. bought my havaianas flipflops and a work skirt. 8'DDDDDDDD

NEED TO STUDY OKBYEBYEBYEBYE

my fav pair of flipflops broke :( major :( about it cuz i havent seen a single pair that i really liked every since that pair ... 2 years ago? haha. it was matte brown/bronze, with gold straps and slight purple motifs. it matched my toenails easily too D: ROFL. it was kinda embarrasing tho, and i dashed with sophia to buy temporary el-cheapo flipflops for the time being.

kekekekeke. i slept in school today for almost 2 hours. tonight im sleeping earlier. TT prz no insomnia.

new shinee song = lulz + win. im surprised it climbed up the melon chart pretty quickly. thats one of the tougher charts to climb.
fighting!